Over the past couple weeks I've noticed a massive change in my thought process. I'm being to notice that whenever my lady tells me she's going to tie me up and band my cock, I'm hoping deep down she'll actually cut it off when she does it next.
The feel of the band (s) around the base of my cock, slowly tightening down. The idea that it's flesh is slowly beginning to die, and that she could easily slice through it right then.
It has been a relaxing few days since the other night, the flesh in my groin was still a tad tender until yesterday. It was interesting running a loofah over the location the band had been on Sunday night. Each time I washed my body o played back that night, hearing her tell me she had the ability to remove it whenever she wanted. Her voice speaking of the idea she could remove it bit by bit was a blissful thought.
After retiring to our room for the night my amazing man stripped to his birthday suit and laid down on the bed. I pulled out the soft boating rope and proceeded to tie each limb to the bed only leaving about an inch of wiggle room. Wanting to leave an element of surprise along with the lack of control I decided he needed to be blindfolded. I'm not sure he loved the idea but he didn't exactly have a choice and previously gave me permission to do as I pleased. Once fully tied down and blindfolded, I decided to rummage through our toy drawer, pulling nearly everything from it not knowing what I wanted to play with first. As I was deciding what to start with first, I asked if we had a lighter readily available, knowing he would wonder what that would be needed for.
I lit the massage candle then climbed a top the bed just next to him. Next to me, laid out on the bed was the elastrator, my favorite knife to play with and lube. I can only imagine he was wondering what was to come as I began to caress his balls and stroke his penis. I reached over and grabbed the elastrator, slid it over his erect penis and as I slid the lock out of place the first part of the band snapped against him and he squirmed a bit. I slid the band the rest of the way off and removed the tool.
As I admired my banded handiwork, I continued to tug and rub his balls. I watched as his rock hard cock began to turn purple, every vein visible and it's temperature cooling. I began to run my tongue along his beautifully dying cock and around the head, enjoying every second of it. Thrusting his cold rock hard cock in my mouth and tugging his balls while he's tied down and blindfolded had me dripping wet. I reached over and grabbed to bottle of lube and the lit massage candle; I blew it out and dripped a bit on his abdomen. Feeling the warms as I rubbed it in and debating which to pour on his cock.
Deciding on the lube I squeezed a generous portion on his cock and balls and began to run my hand up and down his cock over his balls and to his ass. With my other hand I grabbed my already open extremely sharp pocket knife. Every time I pulled on his cock he squirmed a bit, so I grabbed his erect banded member and shoved the blade against it causing him to squirm even more. I lifted the blade off and continued to play with his balls. Then, put the tip to his chest and slowly ran it over his nipple, down his abdomen to his groin and thrust it against his cock slowly applying more and more pressure. Reminding him that I could easily remove his member at any moment and that if I really wanted I could do it bit by bit.
I could tell by the sounds he was making that his discomfort level was getting to a point that stop my play so I focused on only stroking his penis and tugging his balls. I reminded him all he had to do was ask me to remove the band and I would. A short bit later he asked so I reached over, grabbed the scissors and placed them between the band and his gloriously purple rock hard cock. As I squeezed the scissors together the band snapped against him and he withered with a sudden shooting pain.
He took a bit of time to gather himself then moved to the nightstand and grabbed the cock cage. Placing it over his balls and penis then locking it with a smile.
He ran his hands between my thighs and took out the bar to my clitoral piercing. Replacing it with a hoop; he slipped on the key and closed it. I felt to cold metal against my moist warm skin knowing I held the key to unlock his cage. Knowing he couldn't get an erection, causing frustration and discomfort, with the cage on turned me on even more.
He got up from the bed and grabbed "frank" (the name for our first replica attempt of his member) slathering it with lube and thrusting it into my warm swollen cunt. Knowing how worked up I already was from the play time we had already had, he began relentlessly pounding my pussy. In no time I felt myself climbing to an amazing orgasm, as I climaxed I felt my warm juices flow from pussy. He continued pounding me harder, my entire body quivered with pleasure as I continued to explode with unimaginable orgasms and my juices soaked the bed. He stopped just briefly and as I began to catch my breath he began again, harder and faster. I came over and over again, moaning and screaming with pleasure, thinking I couldn't handle much more. Just as I thought I couldn't, I came one more time and he finally relented, obviously happy with the mess I made on the bed and squirming trying to catch my breath. As I rolled over and came back to reality I felt the key against my clit and smiled to myself knowing what it was for.
After several texts between my wonderful lady and myself yesterday, we spent a lovely evening together having a wonderful dinner. Enjoying our conversation, along with a nice relaxing evening following a long day.
Dinner was great, a nice arrangement of steak, baked patatos, and broccoli. I enjoyed every bite of my delicious meal, then cleaned up the kitchen and plates afterwards. Once everything was cleaned up we sat on the sofa for a little bit enjoying each other's company.
When we decided to retire to the bedroom, I stripped down and laid down on the bed. She proceeded to tie me up with rope to where my movement was limited to about an inch or two up from the mattress. Once tied up she decided it would be fun to tickle the bottom of my feet (didn't much care for that).
Soon enough though, she decided that I should be blindfolded while she played. This I went along with, though being tied up pretty much prevented me from going against it. The blindfold was put in place and I was left tied down, blindfolded, completely naked, and at her mercy (which I honestly didn't expect any).
Once the blindfold was in place, I could hear her rummaging through the toy drawer. I could hear the elastrator band application pliers slide against the side of the drawer, knowing very well they were being pulled out. I continued listening to object after object being pulled from the drawer.
At this point, I swear she had emptied the entire drawer. She then asked if we had a lighter readily available as I heard the ring being placed in position on the pliers. Sure enough, it didn't take long before I felt the band snap into place around my cock. During this period it felt as though it was placed about halfway down the shaft of my erect penis.
She proceeded to rub my testicles while describing what was happening to my banded cock. The slight discomfort was painful but bearable. Before I knew it, I felt a hand grab and handle my slowly dying cock flesh before I felt a sharp object pressing firmly against the flesh. During which time I have no idea which side of the band it was being pressed.
She began telling me she could just remove it right then and there, since I was tied down and I had allowed her to do whatever she wanted. She told me she knew I was ready to be without a cock.
The fun continued as I felt what I assume was the blade of a knife running down my chest, abdominal, to my groin. Once I felt it back in my groin, she started the fact that she could just remove it in small intervals (i'm assuming she meant cutting off a little bit at a time until there wasn't any cock left).
During the entirety of the event all I could think about is, "will I wake up without a cock tomorrow".
She began playing with my testicles with lubricant or oil (not sure which she used). During all this, I could feel the band constricting against my cock's flesh every time she would move it just right. I was close to begging her to just cut it off so I could be rid of the friction pain from the movement. Instead she got me to ask to remove the band for the night. That was a huge mistake for that moment. She cut through the band, which snapped lose, causing a huge wave of pain through the walls of my cock (a feeling of being snapped with a rubberband on the same spot 5,000 times.).
Once she had her fun with my cock, we put it into the cock cage and locked the lock. After it was locked, the key to that locked was then secured to a ring strategically placed. It was a wonderful sight seeing that key taunting my caved cock (though just removing my cock sounded so much better than having that extra weight pulling on my groin.).
After we had locked the penis up and placed the key, I proceeded to fuck her with 'frank' (the name we gave our first dildo replica attempt). I felt her warm liquids exit her vaginal opening as I pushed frank in. The entire time turned on by the sight of that key in front of me.
The most interesting portion of the night was waking in the middle of it to massive discomfort. I was able to shake it by laying on my back, but found my testicles and penis swollen this morning inside the cage. At first I believed it was just pain from my body attempting to get an erection, but soon realized the flesh was actually swollen. That was the first time I've ever had that happen.
Earlier my lovely and sadistic love of my life texted me and asked about using the cock cage. I must admit, I was actually excited to see that text. I'm not sure she'll like it much as it would inhibit how she likes to play with my scrotum and testicles but I'm all for locking it on.
Considering at this point my physical cock no longer has any real purpose other than being in the way. I've never been more ready and willing to eliminate my cock as I am these days. I might even go home from work today, pull that cage out, and lock out on myself before handing her the keys.
I must say, ever since writing up that contact and the both of us signing it, our relationship has become even stronger. Our sex life has become even greater as well. Sure my cock really isn't a factor in things anymore but my cock isn't what makes our relationship what it is.
She longed to feel the length of his rock hard erection penetrating her, the thought of him sliding it in and out made her drip with anticipation. She pleasured herself to the image of him pounding her from behind as her nipples grazed the mattress of her bed.
She texted him dirty photos of her tits and warm wet pussy eagerly awaiting the response from him. Hoping each time would be the picture that would get him to arrive, grab her up, and toss her to her bed and strip her down like a newly purchased toy.
The time finally came when he returned from work, he threw her to the bed when kissing her neck so tenderly. He exposed her breasts and began caressing her nipples until they were hard, before stripping her of her bottoms and panties. He kissed her groin surrounding her eager pussy focused on purposely avoiding contact. Driving her to the limits of denial making her want him to touch her clitoris and penetrate her even more.
After several minutes he finally revealed his long erect cock and slowly rubbed it against her groin, rubbing the tip against her clit so gently but with purpose. She thrust against it as she felt herself begin to cum just as he slammed his throbbing cock deep inside her. As she reached climax, he pulled his cock from her and stood up. He grabbed her wrists and tied her down to the bed, followed by securing her ankles firmly as well.
He proceeded to fuck her from behind for a couple of minutes before stopping and pulling out.
Once again he stood up from the bed, but this time pulled something from the pocket of his pants. When he kneeled back on the bed he slammed his cock into her pussy once and pulled out. At the very second his cock vacated her pussy she felt something clamp firmly around her vaginal lips.
At this very second she knew what was coming, she braced for it but it was too late. She felt the needle pierce through her lips followed by the ring. Slowly he moved along until he had completely pierced her pussy closed. From back to front, piercing her shut to the point that when she reached down she couldn’t even rub her own clitoris.
Once he was finished, he sat her up onto her knees with her legs spread enough for her to see his work in a mirror and for her to be able to run her fingers along her slit. After a few minutes of allowing her to visually see it and realize what had just happened, he made her suck him until he was about to blow. As he neared climax, he removed his cock from her mouth and started jerking himself off. He placed his cock against her freshly pierced slit and blew his load all over it. Making her feel what she wished had blown up inside her.
He reached down the front of his shorts as he awoke, feeling the sutured stump in his groin. A smile quickly formed on his face as he played back the prior nights events. His once larger than average cock was now merely a memory and his life as a penectomized man just beginning.
As he opened his eyes, he saw the love of his life laying next to sleeping peacefully. He slowly climbed from the bed as not to wake her.
He felt his official first morning wood without a cock and was amazed at the fact even though he was hard, no one was the wiser due to it being a small bump under his shorts. He walked to the bathroom and say down on the toilet, it was the first time he would urinate without a cock. This new feeling didn't daze him as he did his business and went on with his morning.
To be continued...
Friday night was definitely a wonderful night of fun. After I got home from a 17 hour shift at work, we headed to the store for some things. Returned home, ate dinner, watched the magic show on television, then retired to our bed for the night.
Our didn't end there however, we definitely had other plans. We pulled out the elastrator tool and a couple bands. Placed something to allow her the ability to remove the bands, then applied the bands to the base of my cock.
As my cock started turning purple, and was absolutely rock hard she played with my scrotum. The pain was merely discomfort for a minute but increased heavily after about 5 to 10 minutes. I actually came faster than I have in my life, but didn't actually see the load until she cut the bands and it poured from the tip of my cock.
The pain actually was more intense when the bands were removed than when they were applied. Best feeling in the world though, and I can't wait until those bands are applied for the actual removal of my cock.
Over the past couple weeks I've been visualizing my crotch minus a penis very heavily. Slightly more than usual, but it has been a welcome thought process.
The spiritual realm I've been on with my wonderful and understanding woman has been incredible. The satisfaction I get from a night of taking care of her needs and feeling her energy far exceeds anything I could ever imagine. With each experience the enjoyment increases on both fronts.
When it comes to the day my penis is finally gone, I look forward to no longer wording about morning wood. I look forward to cuddling up close to her at night without a cock in the way. I also look forward to her being able to reach down and play with my testicles without having to move a cock out of the way.
Ever since my partner and I decided to go forward on this journey the sexual interaction has become better with each day.
It feels as though each night is a brand new experience and is more satisfying than the last. I've even begun feeling more sexual gratified after a couple of hours of pleasuring her than if I were to reach an orgasm.
For those who question why I wish to pursue what I do, take a couple days to really focus on the spiritual sexual satisfaction you get after two hours of pleasing her. The release of stress and pleasure your body truly feels after hours of being a single being of electrical interaction. A penis doesn't create that, nor does the lack of one. However, with this journey we are finding that we can be sexual and feel as one without me having this particular organ involved in everyday life.
Last night was an amazing night with my amazing lady. We spent a lot of time in our bed while I explored her body while she caressed my testicles.
After a while I pulled out the dildo and began fucking her with it, when she asked for a harder fuck I gave it to her. Sure my arms were extremely tired after 45 minutes of fucking her with a dildo, but it was well worth it. Watching her orgasm and being able to see her juices flow out of her was incredible.
I gave her a breather before I started fingering her. As I ran my fingers along her now extremely wet vaginal walls, she again begged to be fuck fast and hard, and again I did as she asked.
In total, two hours later, she admitted it was the most intense orgasm she's ever had. Keep in mind, I never once used my own penis to get her there (even though I've gotten her to some extreme orgasms fucking her in the past). We are only beginning our experiment and are quickly finding our sex life is flourishing on this newly started journey.
After doing a lot of thinking, I've decided to bring back my weekly vlog entitled "TUC: An Inside Look" and will be airing it live every Sunday night from 11p - midnight EST starting September 7, 2014.
Over the years I've dealt with many fantasies, as well as focused on if I could live without a cock. The fantasies have never cease to be created within the mind, and the overall desire to live a life without a cock has grown to confirmation.
Yes, my cock is still firmly attached to my groin. Yes, it's removal is still merely theory. However, I've been taking steps towards the actual removal.
While many press the idea of my regretting the removal of my penis if it were to be reality, I've come to find that I would not. I actually prefer to fuck my wonderful woman with toys and watch her pleasure from them.
A few nights ago, she completely numbed my entire cock and then proceeded to rise me. I couldn't feel anything within her vaginal opening, only her warm juices roll down onto my scrotum and groin. While this would frustrate most men, I found it quite refreshing and welcoming. Being able to watch her enjoying herself while I couldn't feel anything just felt right.
Then, for the past two nights we've been using a toy to get her to climax. My cock not within her, just a rubber cock penetrating her. She has admitted that she has had the most amazing orgasms the past couple of times while I've been fucking her with the toy.
Over the past few days I've truly come to realize that if my cock were removed tomorrow, I honestly wouldn't be bothered in the slightest not being able to penentrate her with a physical cock, and she had admitted that with our arsenal of toys and my abilities she really wouldn't miss my cock.
Since the officially return of TUC, it has been a moving train compared to it was in the past. This primarily due to a very busy schedule, but I will be more active from now on. Hopeful posting a couple times a day, at least once a day, or every other day.
