It's definitely been a very busy holiday season for me this year, which is the reason for a slight gap in blog posts. I'm currently fixing a couple issues with audio on the vlog and that will be available soon for view.
After a ton of driving, some traveling to the smokey mountains, and work I should be back full throttle on the blog here very shortly.
After seven weeks of having a numb penis, I've truly started to solidify my desire to make the final step reality. I'm welcoming the idea of my "finalization" as its been called in the past with great desire.
That's right, I'm currently working on and editing footage for the video blog (or vlog as the techies call it) and will be uploading it soon. It has some very good footage and shows a true behind the scenes of my entire progress up to now.
So far I've had no feeling in my cock for 6 weeks and it has been amazing. My wonderful sadistic other half has enjoyed it as well. She has enjoyed squeezing it as hard as she wants, biting it as hard as she wants, knowing I can't feel it. She has enjoyed seeing how far she can go just to find out how much I can't feel.
Over these past six weeks I've discovered how much more I look forward to the final process. This process has made me want to have my cock removed even more than before I started banding. Throughout this process of banding we've discussed multiple methods of removal, and we think we've made a solid choice in the final step.
This week, I also began filming footage of the banding process, as well as putting my thoughts down on film. I will be releasing clips from the footage very soon.
The four week mark has officially come and gone as of this past Tuesday, and during this time discussions of the removal process have increased. The penis has not had feeling for over a month due to banding, and I've enjoyed every second of it.
Going into the fifth week (which is amazingly almost over) I've discovered that the lack of feeling had been amazing. Yes, I've had the wet dream once but have found myself quite sexually satisfied overall.
As I move forward within this process I've debating as to whether I should record a weekly vlog (video blog) as an addition to this blog. I guess the biggest question is if you (the blog readers) would want to see that as well.
This past Tuesday marked the three week mark since the beginning of the second round of banding. Since then I've had a consistent numb penis from base to tip, and I have had no complaints.
During these past three weeks (going on for) I've found my desire to remove my penis becoming greater. This process has really started to solidify my decision to want it removed. I've found myself wanting to use the strap on instead all the time, and the feeling of my testicles and scrotum being played with is much greater. These past few weeks have shown me how great life would be without a penis (physical feeling wise).
I have also found myself more sexually gratified after sexual interaction using my fingers, mouth, or strap on. I can also see myself without a penis a lot clearer than I ever have before.
Tomorrow will mark three (3) weeks of my penis being numb. I've been unable to feel any sensation or pleasure in my penis since I began banding again. I intially banded twice a day for 40 minutes per banding for the first few days, one day the times, and finally banding once per day for four days. Since the intially start, I've dropped to banding once every other day (not sure to feeling return, but to insure numbness stays strong).
With all this, I've found an amazing sensation through this ultimate test. Over the course of these three weeks, I've answered the question of whether I'd be able to handle not having regular orgasms. I've discovered that it doesn't bother me at all, I actually enjoy sex more.
Saturday night was no exception as things moved into a sexual direction. The mutual touching of each others bodies, followed by my loving lady massaging my testicle and scrotum with her hand. She proceeded to tease my ass while she rolled my testicles around in her palm.
Eventually, I pulled the anal beads that we had purchased from the toy drawer and inserted them in my ass as far as I could. After playing with the beads for a few minutes, I pulled the harness (which holds our eight inch long, two inch girth dildo) from the drawer. I tucked my numb cock back behind the harness and strapped the harness securely in place. I lubed the dildo up, and slowly pushed it into her pussy. I proceeded to thrust into her warm wet cunt (she loves when I call it her cunt) just like I would if it were my own cock. The harness allows me to perform as if the dildo was attached to my groin.
I proceeded to fuck her until she decided she wanted to be on top, so we switched positions. After a while, she layed back onto the mattress as I removed the harness.
When everything was said and done, I had the most amazing full body orgasm ever. I ended up sitting in the chair for almost 40 minutes in a complete daze. I felt as though I was on a dream but awake.
I'm closing in on the official two week mark of the second round of banding. The head and glans remain completely numb, and the shaft is losing more feeling with each banding. It's been incredible lacking feeling in my penis, as well as using a newly aquired strap on for intercourse.
Over the past couple weeks I've banded my cock 1-3 times per day with each banding lasting between 30-45 minutes. The results have been phenomenal and I've been extremely happy with the results. I've also been thinking that if this sensation continues to be acceptable, I'll look into electrical ways to completely destroy the nerve bodies.
The fact that I'm going to officially be at two weeks this Tuesday is incredible. So with that being said, it's time to sign off and clamp down some new bands for tonight's banding.
I'm currently going on two weeks since I began the second round of banding. I've been extremely happy with the effects this time around, I've also been able to tolerate the pain of the bands much better this time around.
I decided to start posting photos of the banding process on its own page, which can be located under the pages section of the blog. You'll notice a green ring where the bands are, this is a thin piece of cloth to allow me the ability to cut the bands without damaging skin.
The longer I keep my cock numb, the more I like the idea of being dickless. I've enjoyed fucking my ladies cunt with a strap on while my numb cock is tucked behind the harness, just watching her being penetrated with the dildo is extreme bliss. I've also not had a physical orgasm myself since Tuesday October 21 and have suffered no frustration since then. I'm finding myself much more sexually satisfied without having an orgasm.
Over the past three days my significant other and I have been very intimate. We have found a remarkable connection throughout this journey and the past the days have been amazing.
Since beginning the second round of banding my penis had been completely dead of feeling, and it has been incredible to say the least. Due to the lack of feeling in my member, I've been more focused on her body and her needs. Knowing that I can't cum even if I wanted to is just a great feeling.
Over the past three nights I have pleasured her every way I can, and last night used the new harness and dildo we received in the mail yesterday. I had no problem penetrating her with the strap on while my numbed cock was tucked behind the harness. Watching the dildo moving in and out of her with each thrust was very satisfying.
After an hour and a half of pleasuring her, and her claiming she couldn't go any longer, I got her to orgasm twice more before my body was telling me it was time to stop.
The past three days have really enlightened me. I have not and can not cum even if I try, and this hasn't been a frustration at all. It has truly been very satisfying. Taking care of her needs every way I can had been more sexually satisfying than personally reaching orgasm.
Plus, the second night of intimacy lead to us laying under the covers in our bed completely naked embracing each other. Falling asleep holding each other completely naked was the most intimate thing I have ever felt. We both felt closer to each other as we fell asleep feeling the warmth of each other under the covers.
I've officially just completed my second banding of the day, and I must say the feeling (or lack there of) my cock is amazing. The only time I can feel it is when it bounces against my thigh. After only the days (and two bandings a day) I've created an amazing dead weight above my testicles.
Tonight I'm definitely going to be sleeping with a wonderful sense of accomplishment and a wonderfully numbed member. After a good night's rest, I'm going to throw on a couple new bands for the morning session before going about my day, then tomorrow evening I'll throw on a couple more for the evening session.
It's officially the third day off this round of banding, and so far the results are incredible. The numbing effect had no doubt shown more prominent, but also appears to be lasting a lot longer. Though I have increased to two bandings per day, sensation hasn't been returning between them as quickly as before.
I'm finding that sensation, which used to begin showing after a couple hours, isn't coming back like it was the first time around. Hopefully, I can get the end result thus tune around like I'm hoping for.
After much deliberation I've determined that tomorrow morning is a great staying point for the next round of banding. I will band at the base in the morning or early afternoon (depending on how I feel fatigue wise following my midnight shift at work). I will follow by banding a second time tomorrow night prior to going to bed.
I will continue to bands twice a day for a week, and if results are showing more promise than last time, I will continue at the rate for an extended period of time. Hopefully it will numb the penis to the point it's completely numb for a highly extended period of time. Though the glans are still dull from the first round, I would like to make it more permanent towards prep for the final step.
After having to spend some time warding off a fever and a small cold, I'm back after a nearly two week hiatus.
Since my last blog entry not a whole lot to update on. The additional elastrator bands arrived and I'm getting ready to begin banding once more. This time around I will be doing it twice a day for at least two weeks. If results are showing major promise I will continue longer in hopes to completely destroy the nerves.
Currently (since the first round of banding) the head of my penis remains fairly numb. The glans show little to no feeling when touched, this does show promise towards a bigger picture of the possibly of completely destroying the nerve bodies rendering the length of my penis permanently numb and ready for removal.
It has been a wonderful week in my life, especially these days. It's always a wonderful feeling knowing that needs are met and goals are being pursued gradually.
Over the past week I've been able to clear my mind and see the beauty in life, as well as how blessed I truly am. Having the things I need, a wonderful and understanding woman, and the ability to share my thoughts and experiences with you (my readers and followers).
Though I wish I could tell you the deed has been done and I could be sharing my experiences post removal, I will be patient and enjoy the process of getting to the goal. On a extremely positive note, I'm humbled to see such a great response to the poll, especially since the blog hasn't been full force until recently. I thank you all for getting active and involved.
The process is progressing quite well, as we have been stocking up on all the supplies and equipment that will be needed. We are currently only a few major supplies away from being able to do the final step.
He had started banding his cock at the base twice a day a few weeks prior, just shortly after they had created her perfect replica of his erect member. Of course the banding was already in progress when the replica was made as she loved the feel of his banded penis over it not being banded. She loved feeling the veins bulging, struggling as the bands grew tighter. The feeling of it's temperature dropping to an ice cold feeling.
It had been almost two weeks since he even held a numbed erection, as now days his banding was of a flaccid member. No matter how horny he was, he was just not able to obtain and sustain a full erection. Three weeks of twice a day bandings had rendered his penis useless for sexual intercourse, but she enjoyed sucking on it just to feel it attempt to get hard for her. She loved stroking it for hours on end just so she could watch him focusing hard in an attempt to cum.
This night was like most nights had become for them, she played with his now worthless cock while rubbing her clitoris. Before long she was making him hold a dildo to his groin while tucking his worthless flaccid member between his legs, as she straddled and rode the dildo hard. She refused to stop there, she had him strap on the replica made from his banded erection and rode that until she reached orgasm. After a few minutes she positioned herself for him to fuck her warm wet cunt from behind with his strap on while his numbed flaccid penis dangled behind. With each thrust she could feel his worthless cock slap against her clit, and each time it slapped she begged to be fucked harder.
He fucked her harder, his useless flaccid cock bouncing against her clit, as he felt her squirting all over his replica cock. He just continued to plow her vaginal opening with the strap on, completely used to this being his only method of fucking her.
After several more minutes she pushed him away as she couldn't handle another second of being fucked. Her cunt dripped her sweet juices, and she was wetter than ever.
She removed the strap on from him, staring at his numb flaccid penis. She smiled as she reached down and grabbed it tight, pulling it taut, knowing he couldn't feel her touch.
"Close your eyes baby," she spoke softly as she fondled his testicles with her free hand.
He did as she asked while he enjoyed the feel of her fingers gently moved around his balls.
Soon she stopped, he kept his eyes closed anticipating her touch again.
He soon felt her lips softly and passionately kiss just above his numbed cock, before feeling warm liquid running down his scrotum.
"Open your eyes."
As he opened his eyes, she stared back with a smile on her face. She slowly looked down at his groin before returning to her passionate glare into his eyes.
"Look down."
He slowly looked down, noticing what appeared to be blood on her abdomen, cunt, and thighs. His eyes continued to move down till he reached the blankets. At this point he noticed a severed penis laying next to her right knee. He finally reached the sight of his groin, his numbed cock was no longer hanging above his scrotum. All that remained was a small bloody stump.
She had removed everything just centimeters from when feeling started inside his shaft.
For the past few days I've been working on a new story, though very in depth, not quite finished yet.
I've also been lacking really anything to update on progress, though the head of the penis and glans are still slightly numb. The sensation level hasn't really changed all that much since I discontinued banding over two weeks ago.
With the result thus far, I'm quite sure that of I go full force banding twice a day for a few weeks the results will be wonderful.
After much research, we believe we've found an adequate way to create an exact replica of my member. Once we have it in possession, and it has created a replica (close enough to our standards) the banding process will begin again.
I will most likely start banding twice a day (one each morning and once each evening) in hopes to create a more perminant numb on the penis. Though it may not be completely perminant, it may be much longer lasting. Hopefully also rendering it completely useless.
It has officially been more than a week since I discontinued banding at the base to see how long before full feeling returned after a five (5) day stretch. As of right now the head and glans are still numb (in a fallen asleep type state).
Though this feeling is slightly odd feeling, it is a welcomed feeling. Once we have made an appropriate cast replica of the penis, I'll begin banding again for a longer period. Hopefully the longer period will create a more permanent numb on the entirety of the penis.
I'm also hoping that it will also render the penis completely useless which will allow for an easier removal.
I noticed I haven't posted a new update since Friday (or Thursday, depending on how it posts on here time wise) so I thought I should post an update.
As stated in my previous post, I banded my penis at the base from Friday September 5 until Tuesday September 9. During that period I left the bands in place for 40-45 minutes each time. Over the course of those 5 days I noticed a decrease in feeling as well as erection frequency. By Tuesday I wouldn't get erect even though sex was on my mind constantly.
After Tuesday I decided to stop banding to start the second portion of this experiment. Wednesday and Thursday both showed signs of feeling returning to the nerve body, however, erections were still fairly difficult to come by. Friday was the first day I was able to obtain an erection if I thought about anything sexual, I also noticed that only about 45% of nerve feeling had returned.
On Saturday most penile function (normal erections) had returned and about 85% of nerve feeling had returned.
As of today, Sunday September 14, I've noticed full return penile function and 95% of nerve feeling. The 5% numbness feeling is like that of a limb falling asleep and returning from that state.
Following this experiment (technically first round of banding) in very impressed with the results. I will begin a second round of banding soon, hopefully with a much longer result.
After several discussions between my love and myself, we have found that if the banding process may make the final removal much easier. We believe that if we can get the area numb enough nerve wise, the removal will be much easier considering we wouldn't need to wait for anesthetics to kick in.
From last Friday through Tuesday I banded my penis at the base for 40-50 minutes each day. On Tuesday I decided that I would discontinue banding for a few days just to sew how quickly feeling would return. So far, I'm still about 70% numb at the head of the penis (this includes the glans). It feels as though the area has fallen asleep per say.
I've also noticed that even though I've been horny, I don't obtain an erection as frequently as I have in the past. Though this should bother me, I don't find it to bother me in the least. I guess if it becomes completely useless, the removal process would become reality slightly quicker.
It has now been four (4) days of banding my penis at the base. Each banding session has been 45-50 minutes long with two bands being put in place each time.
So far my session results are as follows:
session one: 70-75% sensation return
Session two: 50-55% sensation return
Session three: 25-30% sensation return
Session four: yet to be determined
I have also noticed a change in erection frequency.
Session one: erections returning around 16-18 hours following session
Session two: erections returning around 19-20 hours following session
Session three: very difficult to get and maintain erection
Session four: so far no erection no matter how turned on I get
Following these past two banding sessions I've noticed that due to the lack of feeling my penis will not remain erect for long if it gets erect at all. Though this has been the case, I'm not finding any frustration involved with it. The only thing I'm disliking is the feeling of dead weight hanging from my groin. However, I do feel that the lack of feeling in my penis is training my brain to acknowledge the lack of a penis, which may help in the long run with eliminating possible phantom erection pains starting following the removal.
Today has been a very pleasant day this far. After banding my cock last night for the second straight night, I've noticed a slower return of feeling. I'm still a lot number at this time today than I was yesterday, this definitely tells me the banding is working.
Tonight, I'll put the bands into place once again before laying down to watch some television. I'll set an alarm on my phone to tell me when I've reached a certain time limit, since I'll most likely be preoccupied with the football game or something else. Plus the alarm will wake me incase I accidently fall asleep after a long day.
Over the past two days my loving lady and I have banded my cock at the base.
The first night, the pain increased as the nerves numbed. After about 45-50 minutes we removed the bands to a completely numb penis. The numbness continued throughout the night and majority of the day.
The second night, the penis was still about 40% numb. Due to this fact, the banding process was quite pleasant. This time, I kept the bands in place at the base for 45 minutes before having D help me remove them.
After two days of banding I'm quite satisfied with the numbed sensation. It really is like my penis isn't there, I actually find myself every once in a while forgetting it is actually still there and checked to see if it is.
Recently, my lady and I have begun trading the effects of banding my penis at the base. So far the results have been satisfactory for the beginning stages of testing.
The other night after placing two bands around the base for approximately 40-45 minutes, the penis tissue was completely numb throughout the night. I literally woke up to pee and completely forgot I still had a penis until I pulled my pants down.
Before that we placed two bands around the base for approximately 45-50 minutes, which left the penis numb majority of the next day. It was a wonderful feeling talking a shower and not being able to feel the water hiring the penis.
So far the banding Trials are going very well, my biggest hope is to begin banding daily. If we can get my penis to a point it is completely numb all the time, I'll truly enjoy fooling my body into believing it is no longer.
Over the past couple weeks I've noticed a massive change in my thought process. I'm being to notice that whenever my lady tells me she's going to tie me up and band my cock, I'm hoping deep down she'll actually cut it off when she does it next.
The feel of the band (s) around the base of my cock, slowly tightening down. The idea that it's flesh is slowly beginning to die, and that she could easily slice through it right then.
It has been a relaxing few days since the other night, the flesh in my groin was still a tad tender until yesterday. It was interesting running a loofah over the location the band had been on Sunday night. Each time I washed my body o played back that night, hearing her tell me she had the ability to remove it whenever she wanted. Her voice speaking of the idea she could remove it bit by bit was a blissful thought.
After retiring to our room for the night my amazing man stripped to his birthday suit and laid down on the bed. I pulled out the soft boating rope and proceeded to tie each limb to the bed only leaving about an inch of wiggle room. Wanting to leave an element of surprise along with the lack of control I decided he needed to be blindfolded. I'm not sure he loved the idea but he didn't exactly have a choice and previously gave me permission to do as I pleased. Once fully tied down and blindfolded, I decided to rummage through our toy drawer, pulling nearly everything from it not knowing what I wanted to play with first. As I was deciding what to start with first, I asked if we had a lighter readily available, knowing he would wonder what that would be needed for.
I lit the massage candle then climbed a top the bed just next to him. Next to me, laid out on the bed was the elastrator, my favorite knife to play with and lube. I can only imagine he was wondering what was to come as I began to caress his balls and stroke his penis. I reached over and grabbed the elastrator, slid it over his erect penis and as I slid the lock out of place the first part of the band snapped against him and he squirmed a bit. I slid the band the rest of the way off and removed the tool.
As I admired my banded handiwork, I continued to tug and rub his balls. I watched as his rock hard cock began to turn purple, every vein visible and it's temperature cooling. I began to run my tongue along his beautifully dying cock and around the head, enjoying every second of it. Thrusting his cold rock hard cock in my mouth and tugging his balls while he's tied down and blindfolded had me dripping wet. I reached over and grabbed to bottle of lube and the lit massage candle; I blew it out and dripped a bit on his abdomen. Feeling the warms as I rubbed it in and debating which to pour on his cock.
Deciding on the lube I squeezed a generous portion on his cock and balls and began to run my hand up and down his cock over his balls and to his ass. With my other hand I grabbed my already open extremely sharp pocket knife. Every time I pulled on his cock he squirmed a bit, so I grabbed his erect banded member and shoved the blade against it causing him to squirm even more. I lifted the blade off and continued to play with his balls. Then, put the tip to his chest and slowly ran it over his nipple, down his abdomen to his groin and thrust it against his cock slowly applying more and more pressure. Reminding him that I could easily remove his member at any moment and that if I really wanted I could do it bit by bit.
I could tell by the sounds he was making that his discomfort level was getting to a point that stop my play so I focused on only stroking his penis and tugging his balls. I reminded him all he had to do was ask me to remove the band and I would. A short bit later he asked so I reached over, grabbed the scissors and placed them between the band and his gloriously purple rock hard cock. As I squeezed the scissors together the band snapped against him and he withered with a sudden shooting pain.
He took a bit of time to gather himself then moved to the nightstand and grabbed the cock cage. Placing it over his balls and penis then locking it with a smile.
He ran his hands between my thighs and took out the bar to my clitoral piercing. Replacing it with a hoop; he slipped on the key and closed it. I felt to cold metal against my moist warm skin knowing I held the key to unlock his cage. Knowing he couldn't get an erection, causing frustration and discomfort, with the cage on turned me on even more.
He got up from the bed and grabbed "frank" (the name for our first replica attempt of his member) slathering it with lube and thrusting it into my warm swollen cunt. Knowing how worked up I already was from the play time we had already had, he began relentlessly pounding my pussy. In no time I felt myself climbing to an amazing orgasm, as I climaxed I felt my warm juices flow from pussy. He continued pounding me harder, my entire body quivered with pleasure as I continued to explode with unimaginable orgasms and my juices soaked the bed. He stopped just briefly and as I began to catch my breath he began again, harder and faster. I came over and over again, moaning and screaming with pleasure, thinking I couldn't handle much more. Just as I thought I couldn't, I came one more time and he finally relented, obviously happy with the mess I made on the bed and squirming trying to catch my breath. As I rolled over and came back to reality I felt the key against my clit and smiled to myself knowing what it was for.
After several texts between my wonderful lady and myself yesterday, we spent a lovely evening together having a wonderful dinner. Enjoying our conversation, along with a nice relaxing evening following a long day.
Dinner was great, a nice arrangement of steak, baked patatos, and broccoli. I enjoyed every bite of my delicious meal, then cleaned up the kitchen and plates afterwards. Once everything was cleaned up we sat on the sofa for a little bit enjoying each other's company.
When we decided to retire to the bedroom, I stripped down and laid down on the bed. She proceeded to tie me up with rope to where my movement was limited to about an inch or two up from the mattress. Once tied up she decided it would be fun to tickle the bottom of my feet (didn't much care for that).
Soon enough though, she decided that I should be blindfolded while she played. This I went along with, though being tied up pretty much prevented me from going against it. The blindfold was put in place and I was left tied down, blindfolded, completely naked, and at her mercy (which I honestly didn't expect any).
Once the blindfold was in place, I could hear her rummaging through the toy drawer. I could hear the elastrator band application pliers slide against the side of the drawer, knowing very well they were being pulled out. I continued listening to object after object being pulled from the drawer.
At this point, I swear she had emptied the entire drawer. She then asked if we had a lighter readily available as I heard the ring being placed in position on the pliers. Sure enough, it didn't take long before I felt the band snap into place around my cock. During this period it felt as though it was placed about halfway down the shaft of my erect penis.
She proceeded to rub my testicles while describing what was happening to my banded cock. The slight discomfort was painful but bearable. Before I knew it, I felt a hand grab and handle my slowly dying cock flesh before I felt a sharp object pressing firmly against the flesh. During which time I have no idea which side of the band it was being pressed.
She began telling me she could just remove it right then and there, since I was tied down and I had allowed her to do whatever she wanted. She told me she knew I was ready to be without a cock.
The fun continued as I felt what I assume was the blade of a knife running down my chest, abdominal, to my groin. Once I felt it back in my groin, she started the fact that she could just remove it in small intervals (i'm assuming she meant cutting off a little bit at a time until there wasn't any cock left).
During the entirety of the event all I could think about is, "will I wake up without a cock tomorrow".
She began playing with my testicles with lubricant or oil (not sure which she used). During all this, I could feel the band constricting against my cock's flesh every time she would move it just right. I was close to begging her to just cut it off so I could be rid of the friction pain from the movement. Instead she got me to ask to remove the band for the night. That was a huge mistake for that moment. She cut through the band, which snapped lose, causing a huge wave of pain through the walls of my cock (a feeling of being snapped with a rubberband on the same spot 5,000 times.).
Once she had her fun with my cock, we put it into the cock cage and locked the lock. After it was locked, the key to that locked was then secured to a ring strategically placed. It was a wonderful sight seeing that key taunting my caved cock (though just removing my cock sounded so much better than having that extra weight pulling on my groin.).
After we had locked the penis up and placed the key, I proceeded to fuck her with 'frank' (the name we gave our first dildo replica attempt). I felt her warm liquids exit her vaginal opening as I pushed frank in. The entire time turned on by the sight of that key in front of me.
The most interesting portion of the night was waking in the middle of it to massive discomfort. I was able to shake it by laying on my back, but found my testicles and penis swollen this morning inside the cage. At first I believed it was just pain from my body attempting to get an erection, but soon realized the flesh was actually swollen. That was the first time I've ever had that happen.
Earlier my lovely and sadistic love of my life texted me and asked about using the cock cage. I must admit, I was actually excited to see that text. I'm not sure she'll like it much as it would inhibit how she likes to play with my scrotum and testicles but I'm all for locking it on.
Considering at this point my physical cock no longer has any real purpose other than being in the way. I've never been more ready and willing to eliminate my cock as I am these days. I might even go home from work today, pull that cage out, and lock out on myself before handing her the keys.
I must say, ever since writing up that contact and the both of us signing it, our relationship has become even stronger. Our sex life has become even greater as well. Sure my cock really isn't a factor in things anymore but my cock isn't what makes our relationship what it is.
She longed to feel the length of his rock hard erection penetrating her, the thought of him sliding it in and out made her drip with anticipation. She pleasured herself to the image of him pounding her from behind as her nipples grazed the mattress of her bed.
She texted him dirty photos of her tits and warm wet pussy eagerly awaiting the response from him. Hoping each time would be the picture that would get him to arrive, grab her up, and toss her to her bed and strip her down like a newly purchased toy.
The time finally came when he returned from work, he threw her to the bed when kissing her neck so tenderly. He exposed her breasts and began caressing her nipples until they were hard, before stripping her of her bottoms and panties. He kissed her groin surrounding her eager pussy focused on purposely avoiding contact. Driving her to the limits of denial making her want him to touch her clitoris and penetrate her even more.
After several minutes he finally revealed his long erect cock and slowly rubbed it against her groin, rubbing the tip against her clit so gently but with purpose. She thrust against it as she felt herself begin to cum just as he slammed his throbbing cock deep inside her. As she reached climax, he pulled his cock from her and stood up. He grabbed her wrists and tied her down to the bed, followed by securing her ankles firmly as well.
He proceeded to fuck her from behind for a couple of minutes before stopping and pulling out.
Once again he stood up from the bed, but this time pulled something from the pocket of his pants. When he kneeled back on the bed he slammed his cock into her pussy once and pulled out. At the very second his cock vacated her pussy she felt something clamp firmly around her vaginal lips.
At this very second she knew what was coming, she braced for it but it was too late. She felt the needle pierce through her lips followed by the ring. Slowly he moved along until he had completely pierced her pussy closed. From back to front, piercing her shut to the point that when she reached down she couldn’t even rub her own clitoris.
Once he was finished, he sat her up onto her knees with her legs spread enough for her to see his work in a mirror and for her to be able to run her fingers along her slit. After a few minutes of allowing her to visually see it and realize what had just happened, he made her suck him until he was about to blow. As he neared climax, he removed his cock from her mouth and started jerking himself off. He placed his cock against her freshly pierced slit and blew his load all over it. Making her feel what she wished had blown up inside her.
He reached down the front of his shorts as he awoke, feeling the sutured stump in his groin. A smile quickly formed on his face as he played back the prior nights events. His once larger than average cock was now merely a memory and his life as a penectomized man just beginning.
As he opened his eyes, he saw the love of his life laying next to sleeping peacefully. He slowly climbed from the bed as not to wake her.
He felt his official first morning wood without a cock and was amazed at the fact even though he was hard, no one was the wiser due to it being a small bump under his shorts. He walked to the bathroom and say down on the toilet, it was the first time he would urinate without a cock. This new feeling didn't daze him as he did his business and went on with his morning.
To be continued...
Friday night was definitely a wonderful night of fun. After I got home from a 17 hour shift at work, we headed to the store for some things. Returned home, ate dinner, watched the magic show on television, then retired to our bed for the night.
Our didn't end there however, we definitely had other plans. We pulled out the elastrator tool and a couple bands. Placed something to allow her the ability to remove the bands, then applied the bands to the base of my cock.
As my cock started turning purple, and was absolutely rock hard she played with my scrotum. The pain was merely discomfort for a minute but increased heavily after about 5 to 10 minutes. I actually came faster than I have in my life, but didn't actually see the load until she cut the bands and it poured from the tip of my cock.
The pain actually was more intense when the bands were removed than when they were applied. Best feeling in the world though, and I can't wait until those bands are applied for the actual removal of my cock.
Over the past couple weeks I've been visualizing my crotch minus a penis very heavily. Slightly more than usual, but it has been a welcome thought process.
The spiritual realm I've been on with my wonderful and understanding woman has been incredible. The satisfaction I get from a night of taking care of her needs and feeling her energy far exceeds anything I could ever imagine. With each experience the enjoyment increases on both fronts.
When it comes to the day my penis is finally gone, I look forward to no longer wording about morning wood. I look forward to cuddling up close to her at night without a cock in the way. I also look forward to her being able to reach down and play with my testicles without having to move a cock out of the way.
Ever since my partner and I decided to go forward on this journey the sexual interaction has become better with each day.
It feels as though each night is a brand new experience and is more satisfying than the last. I've even begun feeling more sexual gratified after a couple of hours of pleasuring her than if I were to reach an orgasm.
For those who question why I wish to pursue what I do, take a couple days to really focus on the spiritual sexual satisfaction you get after two hours of pleasing her. The release of stress and pleasure your body truly feels after hours of being a single being of electrical interaction. A penis doesn't create that, nor does the lack of one. However, with this journey we are finding that we can be sexual and feel as one without me having this particular organ involved in everyday life.
Last night was an amazing night with my amazing lady. We spent a lot of time in our bed while I explored her body while she caressed my testicles.
After a while I pulled out the dildo and began fucking her with it, when she asked for a harder fuck I gave it to her. Sure my arms were extremely tired after 45 minutes of fucking her with a dildo, but it was well worth it. Watching her orgasm and being able to see her juices flow out of her was incredible.
I gave her a breather before I started fingering her. As I ran my fingers along her now extremely wet vaginal walls, she again begged to be fuck fast and hard, and again I did as she asked.
In total, two hours later, she admitted it was the most intense orgasm she's ever had. Keep in mind, I never once used my own penis to get her there (even though I've gotten her to some extreme orgasms fucking her in the past). We are only beginning our experiment and are quickly finding our sex life is flourishing on this newly started journey.
After doing a lot of thinking, I've decided to bring back my weekly vlog entitled "TUC: An Inside Look" and will be airing it live every Sunday night from 11p - midnight EST starting September 7, 2014.
Over the years I've dealt with many fantasies, as well as focused on if I could live without a cock. The fantasies have never cease to be created within the mind, and the overall desire to live a life without a cock has grown to confirmation.
Yes, my cock is still firmly attached to my groin. Yes, it's removal is still merely theory. However, I've been taking steps towards the actual removal.
While many press the idea of my regretting the removal of my penis if it were to be reality, I've come to find that I would not. I actually prefer to fuck my wonderful woman with toys and watch her pleasure from them.
A few nights ago, she completely numbed my entire cock and then proceeded to rise me. I couldn't feel anything within her vaginal opening, only her warm juices roll down onto my scrotum and groin. While this would frustrate most men, I found it quite refreshing and welcoming. Being able to watch her enjoying herself while I couldn't feel anything just felt right.
Then, for the past two nights we've been using a toy to get her to climax. My cock not within her, just a rubber cock penetrating her. She has admitted that she has had the most amazing orgasms the past couple of times while I've been fucking her with the toy.
Over the past few days I've truly come to realize that if my cock were removed tomorrow, I honestly wouldn't be bothered in the slightest not being able to penentrate her with a physical cock, and she had admitted that with our arsenal of toys and my abilities she really wouldn't miss my cock.
Since the officially return of TUC, it has been a moving train compared to it was in the past. This primarily due to a very busy schedule, but I will be more active from now on. Hopeful posting a couple times a day, at least once a day, or every other day.
They entered the bedroom embraced as they fell to the mattress, they stripped each others' clothing off until both bodies were exposed. Immediately he could feel the electricity between them, feeling that something was different about tonight.
She quickly grabbed a hold of his cock's rock hard shaft and stroked it vigorously and with purpose, stroking until he edged and quickly stopped. Her mouth moved down to the tip and she gently lapped up his pre-cum with her tongue. The taste sent her into a blissful orgasm in itself as she looked up into his eyes watching her every move.
He studied every inch of her beautiful body as she played with his cock. Enjoying every moment of the pleasure she was allowing him to have. Though he could feel something was different about tonight, he pushed it to the back of his mind and focused on her and his pleasure.
She began running the length of his shaft with her tongue as she cupped his testicles, and soon transitioned to taking as much of his large member into her mouth as she could. She forced it down into her throat gagging from the length but once again took him to the edge before stopping abruptly. Again, she licked the pre-cum from the tip of his penis, smiling up at him as she did.
She watched as he imagined her warm wet pussy around his cock, and without a second thought knew it was time to implement her plan. She reached under the mattress and pulled out a large chef's knife and placed it underneath the blanket next to her. Once in place she climbed onto of him and slowly slid his cock inside her. She rode him slowly and listened to him moan from the pleasure, she began speeding up until she felt herself climax. Once she had what she wanted, she climbed off knowing he had yet to orgasm.
He looked down at her confused but quickly closed his eyes once more as she slowly ran her finger tips along every inch of his manhood.
Once his eyes were closed and he had gone back to his fantasy realm, she slowly slid the knife from beneath the blanket and positioned it to the base of his cock. She watched as his cock slowly returned to a flaccid state as she kissed his stomach tenderly.
She kept her hand firmly on his cock feeling as it reached a fully flaccid state and at that very second sliced through the flesh with one quick motion. She felt the warm liquid pool around her hand and his flaccid penis. She looked down to see his cock severed and lifeless in her hand as he opened his eyes to look down.
He saw her holding his lifeless penis in her hand, quickly looking down to find the chef's knife laying across his groin where it used to reside. The small puddle of blood pooled up and slowly trickling down his scrotum and between his thighs.
